Im Slack but heres a post

Ok so I said I would try harder to actually post stuff on here. And I have good intentions of doing so. I just dont have that much to say

2 posts 1 month, Imma go with miracle or at least divine intervention

So I actually made 2 posts in 1 month this year, thats fucking amazing. What? Oh the fucking thing. Yeah a few of my older posts I went back and censored out some things because I felt bad that my kids might read it. Then it occurred to me that they know what I foul mouthed bastard I am, so fuck it. Oh yeah back to my babbling.....

So I have done nothing, not jack shit, to get my fat ass back in shape. Yes its been cold, is that really a good excuse? Ummmm no, im just a pussy and its gonna hurt when I start, and Im not really looking forward to hurting. Its hard enough just to get out of bed these days.

Imagine a really funny segue

I vent, its what it is for right?

Im hoping that not only do I get in shape by this summer I also am planning on trying to get in touch with my biological family (adoption REALY does explain so much in my world). Im not sure how I feel about it. It's something that I have always wanted to do, as far back as I can remember anyway. I know where some of my bio family are but I can find others. I would really like to find em both. It's not really that sappy as it may sound. I wanna know who I look like, do I have any brothers or sisters out there that I dont know about? I do know I have a 1/2 brother who is about 7 yrs younger than me, but that's not enough. I wanna know it all, now that I know all that I know.

I got my entire adoption record in 2008, right before I bought a house. I often wonder what things would be like had the situation turned out different. What if I still lived in the apt and was able to actually have money in the bank. Would I have ponied up the $130 to meet them last summer? And if I had would we still be in touch or would I drift away from them as I so often do from 'family'? I know it seems like a dick move, and I truly an thankful for the things my family has done for me. But its awkward, we aren't really the same, and from what I have learned about my bio family, they are a lot like the family I grew up with.

OK OK wait. Im stoppin here, sorry for the bummer of a post, hopefully the next one will be soon and maybe a lil funny.

So its 2010

Ok so i have had this blog for several years, I started strong and sputtered out fairly quickly. I would say that I dont have anything to say but according to twitter that is not the case. Maybe its just there is no pressure to go beyond 140 chars so I feel free to spout out random tid bits. I dont really know for sure. I need to put my thoughts together and get my encounter with MAS (Memphis Animal Services) out there. I have put it off for several months. I was originally going to post something in Sept when my room mate got her puppy but I didnt. Then when I got my dog I was going to post something but I didnt. Maybe when I get home from work I will work on the post.

Im going to try to post on a more frequent basis than I have in the past. But I guess we will see how that pans out.

To all my fans, HAHAHAHAHAH, I mean the couple of people that notice, thanks. Ill try to get some stuff posted soon

Frantic Panic

So here I am in full slack ass mode and really cant afford to be here. I need to finish painting 2 rooms and one ceiling in my house so I can close on the loan. I have 2 websites that are screaming for me to get it done now (they are barely started). My employer's website totally needs an overhaul. I need to get all the POS stations back to 100%. And I just dont feel like doing and damn thing.

Now dont get me wrong, I love it when I come through in a pinch, Im just beat the fuck down. I dont know if its age or just being as out of shape as I am, or maybe I just havent gotten out of the 'winter in memphis sucks ass' mode. Regardless I gotta get moving and ASAP. All of the afore mentioned items need to be done tomorrow. Yes as in friday the 22nd. Jesus Christ Macaroni I dont think there are enough hours left in the day to get it all done.

Then again I have been known to blow my mind and pull shit off somehow. Im hoping that this happens but I just dont see it. So Im off to try to get as much done at work as I can before leaving and ruching to the house to tackle all that stuff.

Gah being a responsible adult really sucks as bad as I thought it would when I was a kid.....

Peace out

Fail Blogging/exercise/cold turkey

Ok I may have mentioned that I suck at blogging. Somehow though I manage to tweet fairly regular, maybe because I know I cant ramble. Anyway, the exercise thing was a total bust, as was the cold turkey drinking. However I have managed to lose 15 lbs with just a minor alteration of my normal diet. And now that it is warm enough, I should be getting tubes for my mountain bike and start riding soon. I actually have been walking more than I was, not that I am walking a lot, just more than I have in the past 3 yrs.

I did join a meetup group that goes for walks 3 times a week. However I have yet to make a walk. Almost did once but slammed 2 iced lattes before the walk was going to start. I thought that might have been a bad decision since I was about to go for a 2 - 4 mile walk with a group of strnagers. Im going to try and make it this next Wed. We shall see.

It is odd thuogh that I can update my facebook status and tweet 4 or 5 times a day but I cant seem to make my self post here more regular. Probably cause I know people on facebook and twitter will actually see it, as opposed to here. No one know this exists but me and MAYBE a handful of people. I will try to start posting just for the hell of it and maybe Ill get creative.

Time to lose the gut

Ok so Im sad. Well mad might be a better word, but Im mad at me. I got fat. Not huge fat, but fat nonetheless. I have put an extra 4 inches on my wiast in 3 yrs and gained about 40 pounds. I really want to start working out, and riding my bike again. So the plan is Im going to start a exercise program starting this Sun. Also this Sat night is going to be the last night of 'real' drinking for a while. Actually im goign cold turkey for the next 2 weeks and hopefully that will jumpstart the weight loss action. I intend to post my progress, pictures etc on a daily basis. But we will see ( hah we like anyone even knows this place exists). So hopefully in 3 months I will be 30 lbs lighter and 4 inches less round.


Fa Q 2!

Jesus I suck at blogging.

So its only been 2.5 yrs since my last entry. I have had moment that I had tons to say, these moments have passed quietly as you can see. Maybe this time Ill actually keep posting. I dont typically have anything poignant to say, and doubtful that there is anyone interested to my tirades. Lack of an audience doesnt mean I shouldnt post, its just not very satisfying. We'll I guess we will see how I do this year.

Until next time,
Me

As the joint burns and the stomach turns....

Man life has had a huge change in the past few months. I broke down and sold my hair for a 'real' job. But it is for my dad, its his buisness that he has ran for quite a bit. I think a little part of me died again, but Im getting used to the occasional loss.

So I was approached in March about comming back to work for my dad. I wasnt really sure how to feel, but I thought about it. Then May came around in a sledge hammer fasion, and i was back working for at my family buisness. This time however Im doing most of my stuff inside. I was hired as the video game technician assistant fondly known as Eds Bitch. This isnt a slam on Ed by anymeans, thats just the 'official' title. However after working there for almost a month they up and fired the network guy. Now since Im 'good' on a computer I am expected to know how to use or figure out the network/software/gameroom stuff 'yesterday'.


Somehow I got the wireless network to talk (but still not quite right) and I got a piece of software to work that had totally crapped itself. I may have even figured out the employee ID thingy(printer/software) to do right. But since I got so much time on my hands Im supposed to be reading a book by doctor phil. No I wont capitalize his name. He is some fat bastard that wrote a book titled 'Lose Weight Now'. I could almost understand if he had lost some weight, but some fat bastard telling me how to lose weight just isnt very inspirational. Now Im supposed to read this book that was written for people that are dis-sattisfied with thier life and looking for a way to change it. Thats just not me really. Sure there are a few things that could use a good cleaning and such, but for the most part Im real happy where I am.

Good gawd man I didnt know I had so much to say. freaky.

Bleh

Ok is this really working?

So its been several months since I bothered to post anything to this thing. I wonder how many people noticed. 2 maybe 3, not that it matters. So whats been going on. I have almost finished v.01 alpha of autowebfixation. It works I just dont have everything that I want to have available yet. And I would like to tighten some things up a bit before I really went public. I have gotten very little feedback unfortunately about the ease of use for the end user. I have tried and tried to get peoples opinions but they either dont care or have very little to say about it other than they like it.

This is not comforting. I havent really got the feeling anyone has dug in and gotten their hands dirty. They may have made soem minor changes but nothing really shattering. I dont know the point was to keep it simple so I guess there really isnt any way for someone to get in there and do anything shattering. Who knows. I just thought what the hell ill post here again for lack of any where else I could post and have it available. Im outta here latre.(thats european spelling)

Family Care Foundation Is this a joke?

Within hours of the tsunami tragedy that struck Asia in the last days of 2004, Family Care Foundation (FCF) responded with immediate assistance for victims in India, Thailand and Indonesia.

Ok so they did something decent once. Oh and for a foreign country, thats beautiful. Its day 5 of post-landfall for Katrina, where are these people? They are braging about getting aid to a country that is half way around the world, and they did it in HOURS! Did I mention this is day 5? People are dying from dehydration and infection on US soil! I find this disgusting and horrifying. How can we as a country take 5 days to respond to our own friggin people?

I have a few ideas about that. One maybe the rest of the country really just doesnt care much about helping out the hicks in MS, LA, AL. If thats the case we are truely living in very very sad days. Another lil nugget of thought, what if we were not spending billions of dollars fighting a war and start spending money on helping out the citizens of this country that are truely in danger. But who am I? Appearantly not the guy in charge that feels that its better to destroy another country so we can have something to rebuild since our ecconomy is about to take the big sleep.

There are people falling out dead, yes dead, in the streets of New Orleans. They say war is good for the ecconomy, I always figured that is it was good for the ecconomy via population control. Less people, more money. Is this disaster just an added bonus to the population control? I mean the people that are left seem to be the poor and the minorities. Who cares about them? Right? They dont have water! Its a city on a river and by the ocean and they dont have water. Eerily prophetic words were never writ ... 'water water everywhere, and not a drop to drink.' Spooky.

And dont get me wrong, I think its a great thing that we are able as a country to help those in need of help in a matter of hours. But cant we take care of our own first and formost? If we dont take care of our own citizens and we are expected to be the ones that are to be the shining example, shouldnt we show that we can handle our own issues immediately and without hesitation? Isnt that what we are supposedly fighting for in Iraq? So that they can take care of themsleves? Anyone remember Bush Sr. saying that the Gulf war was not going to be the next Veitnam? How long ago was that? and yeah sure there was a break for a few years...... oh yeah that Clinton guy was in office. I didnt even mean to get on this line of thinking. But Good God man! People help in any way you can. The entire city of New Orleans is looking at being displaced for possibly a yr, and thats on a REAL possitive outlook. These people are going to be in our citys and towns. They will need work, they will need living space, and most of all they are going to need some help. Alot of them that stayed only have what they have on thier backs. If anything of thiers did happen to survive the storm they will probably never know. Have you ever had to start over from scratch? I have on several occassions, mostly by choice. Its not pretty, I can only immagine 10s of 1000s of people having to do it at the same time.

Sorry for the long winded pointless rant. I just had to say something. It really makes me mad though. Some people have the arrogance to go about talking like we are the harbringers of good will, yet turn a blind eye to our own citizens in thier time of need.

http://www.redcross.org/

http://www.salvationarmyusa.org/USNSAHome.htm

A Whole New White

Ok is it so wrong of me to find that there was an article about the previous leader of the 'Church of Jesus Christ Christian' or otherwise known and 'Aryan nation'. This article says that they have gone belly up and their Headquaters is up for auction since they have not paid their mortgage for several months now. How is it that a group known as hate mongers could possibly get by with naming a church after JC? If there was one thing that just about everyone can agree on is that JC was a man that stood for peace, love, and acceptance. Im not saying that this is necesarrily the traditional Christian view, just Jesus'. To add an even added bonus to this little snippet of news, the page that was displaying the article was also running an ad.

The following ad was displayed next to the article.

Not only is this hillarious, but I wonder if it had been planned. I know that the ads on yahoo are supposed to 'go hand in hand' with the displayed article but I think that this might be a little over the top. Do they mean that since the Aryan Nation is crumbling that there will be a whole new white? Do they mean that since the Aryan Nation is gone the rest of the world might now see the 'white blight' as maybe a contributing member of our global community? Or do they just mean that since they have improved their product that what we once considered white will appear dingy compared to the new and improved bleach? I was pretty sure that since chlorine was a naturally occouring chemical that there really wasnt much to improve upon. But hey Im not a scientist or nothing like that.

I havent had much to say lately but this little bit of news was such a gut buster (at least for me) that I thought I would share it with you, the few, the invisible, the non-existant. However I should get my typing fingers out and scoure the news sites for something worthwhile to talk about. Maybe not so worthwhile, but something that might interest someone. It seems whenever there is a worthwhile cause that nobody hears anything, or just the opposite, that everyone has an opinion and the truth gets burried in the madness. I just couldnt let this one go. Maybe Ill get around to making some posts here in the near future. Until then remember.......

...first you pillage, then you burn.

Walk The Line

Ok so I finally have a release date for Walk The Line (I cant believe the the only link I could find was from some review site). Anyway the date is Nov 18 2005. 'Whats the big deal?' you might say 'Are you a huge Jonny Cash fan?' Well there is no denying that I do like a bit of Mr Cash's work, but thats not the point. The point is that when the movie was being shot, I lucked into a job painting different sets and some of the props for the movie. I dont mean anything special or nothing. I just got to paint some walls and some desks and trash cans. The link takes you to a page that has a link to the trailer. Of course I was obsessing over trying to see if I recognized any sets that I may have worked on. At the very very end of the trailer it showed him inside Sun Studio looking out from the control room. I painted the trim and helped faux finish the walls of that set. Thats pretty cool.

I also worked on several sets at the airport in Millington. There were at least 3 different sets that I worked on out there. I was kinda funny. We were painting an old old airport to look like an old beat up air force base but with a fresh coat of paint. Then we aged it so that you couldnt tell it was fresh paint. I discovered there that a medium grey is alot more burnt seina than you might think. We were touching up some desks before we distressed them. Right? So we touched up spots where the paint had flaked off, then we used more paint to make it look like the paint had flaked off. Yeah you read that right. It was kind of a surreal experience if you could imagine.

My step-brother, Spencer Schilly, shot a film in memphis last year called 'Send In The Clown'. I could find anything that linked directly to it so I just didnt. however I did find a way for those of you that care about indie films and would like to help support this film click here and buy the 'clown' shirt. The $35 is supposed to go to helping fund this film. The best of luck to ya brother.
I hear that there is another movie about to be shot in Memphis. Maybe Ill get a call about them needin a painter. I wont hold my breath. That was a really cool gig.

I do actually have things to say other than just blabbering about indie films and me getting to get in on painting the sets. However I dont really feel that I have it in me to go into all the other stuff at this time. No, it wouldnt be prudent at this juncture.

And oh yeah, heh what do you think of the new layout? I just moved somethings around a bit. Im thinking of tweaking the color scheme abit as well just probably wont get to that tonight.

Random Google Link

Spooky-ish

I just logged into /. (slashdot for non nerdy news readers) and I stumbled across my journal entries. I have been on slashdot for quite some time now I think I started back in 99. But I made my first journal entry just last Nov. The last post that I made was from Jan this year. It was kinda funny and just creepy to see where my head was just 8 short months ago. Some things change, others, not so much. Im not really sure how to take the prophetic words that wuz writ 8 moons ago. I still have most of the same goals that I have had for a very long time now. Some what altered but with a similar if not identical end result.

On a different note. I do have some very short term goals that I think are reasonably attainable.
1st I want to get my hands on a Google Map Once I get the map hosted I should be able to plug in markers at any zoom level. This could be a killer little application/service that I might be able to provide to all sorts of businesses.
2nd I also have a little more lernin to git did on that PHP stuph and maybe even a new look into XML. I know I know. Geek outbreak alert 'Sound the Horn!' It shouldnt be that bad.

I just havent been on the ol puter much for the past month or so. I have been slackin on my slackin. Go figure. Its not that Im a procrastinator, I just like to put stuff off, for as long as possible, alot. Hey Im a product of the 70s, short attention span/advent of a remote/saw Al Gore claim to 'invent the internet' (I bet I helped more than he did, and Im not tellin the world) er I guess I just did -heh- anywho Im starting to ramble on and on alot more than I had ever inteded. Well when I get the map thingy going there will definitely be a link.

Subtle Changes

Well if you have been here before, I cant believe you came back. On the other hand if you have never been here, you wouldnt know about the changes that have occoured. I have been playing around with the template, I decided black was too dark, so now it is 2 shades of blue lighter, or would that be off-black? Anyway I think I am going to wind up using a earthy toned color scheme, but it may just stay blue-ish. Also have added some new links to my listings. If you havent visited those sites I recommend them all for a good read.

There have been many opportunities for me to post some bit of rage here and there, but I just havent had the 'blogging' spirit as of late. Im going to try to make a better effort at updating/posting on a more freuent basis. Its just that I have been to THAT blog that didnt have anything to say, except that they felt the needed to post something, and ta da, this is it! I really dont wanna be that blog.

Anyway Im going to be tweeking the template periodically, so if something changes, dont panic, it will probably just be a temporary thing. Im mostly playing with fonts/colors so the basic layout will be the same (at least for the time being). I do actually have a few things that I want to get off of my chest but I gotta do a little more research before I let loose. I may also create another blog that will be for web information, how tos, where, whatever. Until then --

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Prejudice is a great time saver. It allows one to form opinions without having to get the facts.

Preemptive Random Synapse Firings

Ever wonder if the warhead that has been hurled at a speed of +26,000 MPH at a comet passing near the earth was such a good idea? Well now would be a good time as any. Although I have just discovered a rather dissapointing fact. We will not be able to see the impact as had been previously believed. Appearantly the impact will occour somewhere west or east (depending on your point of view) of Hawaii. In other words somwhere between Hawaii and Japan. This will occour around 1:52 am July 4th +/- 3 mins EDT. Im sure there will be a live webcast from NASA's site. Hopefully this wont be catastrauphic, lest the rest of this post be in vain. I have added an image link to One.org This is a good cause, however I feel that they are overlooking the cases of domestic extreme poverty. Dont get me wrong Im all for what they stand for. If there is a way to stamp out extreme poverty world wide, Im inline to help where I can. But I do find it a bit arrogant to take on global poverty when there is such a high rate domestically. No one wants to admit it but there are A LOT of poor families in America. I would think that if the statement 'Its America's time to shine' that America would take care of its own poor first. But dont let me discourage you from checking out One.org by all means lend a hand where you can. There is a HUGE International musical festival going on over the next several days. the long walk to justice All they ask for is you to sign a letter (presumably to have it printed out and handed to the powers that be) , and post a picture with your name. They will be lining the streets with the photographs in the city where a meeting is taking place with 8 of the most powerful politicians in the world. I sent mine in. Who knows some accidental photograph of the pictures will have my face plastered all over national and international papers/news shows. HEH HEH my shot at fame. And I have finally almost finished out as much as I can for Lisa Laurens site which I am upgrading via Grinz Control Dock. I have been working on this site for what seems like ages. I dont know what it was that took so long. There were some minor details that got overlooked when I started, and these led to major issues on down the line. I think I have gotten most of the bugs worked out. I still have a few things that need finishing up but I dont think they are out of my grasp. Also I have my own site through Control Dock, unfortunately it is not available to the public until I get my own domain name. This should be in the very very near future. But I have been using it to track my progress along the learning curve of Control Dock. All of which is about to be archived and maybe available to the public but the site itself will be getting overhauled once I get the domain. Im still not totally sure which direction I will be taking with the site but Im sure I will find some way to take up a little bit more of cyber space. I dont know if you noticed, heck I dont know if there is a you out there or not. Not that it matters, not to say that I want anyone that is comming to stop. But noone ever writes, and I feel so unloved. Even the folks that came to harrass me have quit posting. Of course I havent been very diligent in updating this blog. Maybe I have a rather dull life and dont have much to comment on. Thats just sad. Anyway Im off to see the fireworks downtown. Is it just me or is Memphis the only city to decide that city wide we will celebrate holidays on whatever day they choose? I mean Halloween fell on a Wed night, they decided to celebrate the Fri night before hand. Now its July 3rd and we are going to shoot fireworks off celebrating the 4th...... Did I mention random?????

Slackers B Us

So here we are a week later and I havent done anything with this site. Ive just been so busy lately. Trying to work on several sites. These are past due and I have not made the progress that I had originaly hoped to make. However I think I have alot of the difficult stuff handled. Not that there wont be more comming down the line any second now. But the stuff I have been working on has beat me up for many days now. I totally went the long way about doing things. I seem to do this alot. Over complicate simple tasks. I would love to say that Im getting better at it but I dont want to lie to myself or anyone else for that matter. So it looks like its going to be back to coding late into the morning and then getting up early and painting whatever I can find to paint. And maybe just maybe going back to work for the local Stagehand Union. That is one of the few jobs that I have had that I KNEW I was good at, and thoroughly enjoyed. And still I have done nothing to this site except get some stuff off my mind and out my fingers.

I think I am about to start reading/studying Power Programing For PHP 5. Maybe that will help to get me out of this mental funk Im in. Im hoping that since I dont have the graphic software at the moment that I might be able to express my creative side through programing. I dont know if Im all that creative in that department. But Im going to give it the good ole college try. (albeit Im no college grad)

Until next time --
Knowledge is Power

This is the full back peice

Lower Back piece

Tribal Flower

Fine but (censored) you

Ok some guy has a blog that I ran across see :(censored) idiotS!
I used some foul language, he called me on it. I thought about it and decided that even though I dont know what Im gonna do with this site I would like to be able to invite my children and parents to see it. So I decided to attempt to not use foul and offensive language on my site. So Fine but (censored) you.

Anyway, I think I have some more art that Ill be posting in the next few days. Unfortunately for me I am no longer in posession of Photoshop so Im currently rather limited in creative freedom, and I lost over 6 yrs of art that I had been saving since 97/98. I have made some cool tribal stuff that may get posted. Anywho I should really be working on a database import but Im quite frustrated at the moment.

Im almost sure I have worked out most of the bugs but, I have tried and tried and continued to find new ways to screw it up. so im kinda burnt for a min. Im not sure if Ill try again tonight, its 1:10 am and im kinda tired. I dont know if I could get it right at this point, on the other hand we had discovered that after a few days of limited sleep you get into a zen like state. Of course this time Im not downing pots of coffee and eating penuts 4 - 5 days a week, and if we were really lucky we got fresh bread thanks to the bread dude next door. But hey, I think I AM going to go work on that import, like I said I think I got it figured out and if I do it wont take but a few minutes, and if I dont have it all worked out, that wont take but a few minutes to figure out either.

Seen on fortune cookie:
That wasnt cat!